while TTC I was asked for a divorce

Separa
Been married for a little over a year! Through the deployments and infidelity I came back to him. Ten years of growing together and now apart! In the last few months after ttc he stopped and started being distant I guess I get the big picture of it all as I'm writing this. He was honest and told me marriage is not for him and he doesn't feel free( i am not a strict wife ) it's been a struggle for him as he's been doing what he wants for the last 5 years ! I want to live on too but I feel emotionally attached to him. I'm tired of fighting for him and walking in egg shells when he texted me he wanted a divorce it was almost like he couldn't prolong it anymore it's truly upsetting especially when I'm always moving mountains for him. It's in my DNA to cater and to love unconditionally but I just feel so stupid and unvalued if that's even a word! He takes care of us pays our bills and tells me he loves me I don't think things will get better anytime soon. Im exhausted and tired of starting over, Anyone else going through this?