Fed up

Khyla renee • 🔮28✨momma to baby Vee🌈💕
I asked my man how was work like a wifey shud wen her man comes home ..he says it was cool they're taking money extra out my checks i said okay well all that food must add up huh and than bam!💣💣😳 he gives me this look ..n just by the way his eyes are im like oh shit hes drinking this is guna be a long night..he spazzes out saying bitch u spend all ur money dont no how to save shit all u do is spend money i wouldn't even trust u if we was putting our money together blah blah ..n i said well wtf the bills is paid so why the fuck does it matter ..he says while i have to save every dollar while i blow money smh ..and i told him i spend money because i no the bills are paid he said stfu before i punch u n the mouth ..i am a dancer at a club so yaaa i make more ..he thinks im cheating but im not we just lost a baby in October i actually talked to him 2 days ago about the sex issue that im nt happy but i want to fix it ..i tell him if i wanted another man he will be here in the house and u wudnt be here lol ..but its my apartment my man stays with me and i slept on my sofa last night bkus i felt so scared to lay in my own bed expecting him to hit me n choke me im tired of crying..i love the shit out of him but i cant deal anymore i love my life i rather be lonely then being with someone whos controlling ..i smoke weeed he does to he gets made kus i spend 50 on bud a day witch he smokes with me if hes home .smh!.i no how to save the place he sleeps shit and shave i paid for our first place i save up for bkus im not guna let a man put me on my ass ..i learned that lesson being homeless since 14years old ..so i just dont no wat to do ladies or how i go about this