snap to my ex/ ex friend also

should I send this or is this just a bad idea.. I have no intentions on gettin together I seriously just miss my friend..

u wanna know something funny Ik how much u hate when ppl type books but u might as well call me a mf aspiring author bc I'm about to write one. I've talked myself out of saying this several times but I need to get all of this off my chest, and ik ur not dyslexic so don't say u couldn't read it.. so whts ur deal man?? U do realize tht id drop anything for u and ur pushing tht girl away.. ur pushing away the person tht actually gives af about u.. like wtf dude. Like ik I can be a crazy bitch sometimes but it's not like u didn't already know tht, and it's kinda hard when ur friends r my friends and they talk about u all the time and I'm just like ah cant relate bc he's ghosting me at the moment. Like not trying to sound like a narcissistic bitch but I'm a pretty damn good friend and we've always been good when we're friends so pls get it together and just be my friend again.