Am I crazy ???? 😩😩😩 labour opinion

Am I the only one who's pregnant and believe that labour is the most disgusting thing ever! It's like the worst task you are forced to live to be able to know the most joyful thing after and finally know the true love. I think it's aweful to have hands and finger you don't know inside you. I think stripping is a non-acceptable thing. It's disgusting to be raped by all those hands and be naked and covered in blood and shit in front of strangers. I'm so happy to be pregnant and having a baby but god I can't believe that I'll be forced to live those aweful things. There's still 8 months to go and I barrely sleep because I try to figure how will I handle this ?! Every one thinks it's normal to have a gynecologist and nurses that plays in your body but everytime I have an appointment I feel dirty and raped and I feel so much pain... I've always think that a gynecologist is a pervert in disguise...my mother and sister thinks I'm crazy ... I just don't get why people love to labour and find this exciting. Please tell me I'm not crazy or the only one. 😩😔