Around 3 years ago, I was in a toxic relationship and ended up falling pregnant. The father wanted nothing to do with the baby, I had just turned 19 and he was a lot older than me. Round about 8 weeks pregnant I started to bleed which went on for weeks and weeks, I eventually ended up having a miscarriage. Which was heart breaking for me, throughout this whole time I stayed at my mothers house. The way she behaved towards me was vile that's the only word I can find to describe her actions. As soon as she found out I was pregnant she wanted me out of the house, I asked her not to have any contact with the father of the baby but she continued to message him behind my back. Things got worse between me and my mother when I started bleeding and having to go to the hospital. At the time my little brother was around 11 and her and my step dad hadn't shared a room for around 10 years. All of a sudden she was trying for a baby - while I was going through this miscarriage. I remember begging her and crying asking why would she start trying for a baby out of the blew when I was going through all this by myself and needed her support. Some of you might read this and think I'm selfish but my mother had me and my 2 other sisters to a different man and never raised any of us, we were raised by my gran. My mum still to this day has nothing to do with my sisters. It wasn't until she met my step dad and had my brother she actually took any notice of any of us by this time I was around 13.