They said I am having a boy, BUT...

Zee • Mama to a beautiful baby girl named Lana 👼🏻🎀
I did an ultrasound at 15 weeks, doctor said it looks like a boy.. but don't buy any boy stuff before we confirm next appointment. I went to my appt today (I'm 19w2d) and he said it's a girl. I went to another private clinic and also said it's a girl. I am over the moon! But I dunno why deep down I'm like disappointed that it's not a boy? I feel GUILTY for feeling like this.. wtf is wrong with me. This is even my first pregnancy 🤦🏻‍♀️ it's like I adapted to the idea of having a boy.. Someone slaps me please 😵