HELPP

I feel so bad my man left me because I said some VERY mean things to him earlier in my pregnancy and it's only now dawning on me. 
First of all he done something to really irritate me. Instead of talking like an adult, he ignored me and then I saw red!! I called him every name under the sun and basically threatened him. I didn't even know I was pregnant at that point but that explains it however I don't want to blame it on hormones then again, I wouldn't normally do that and I feel like I broke our trust. 
He definelty won't come back even though I apologised several times. I feel like I'm in the wrong and I don't know what to do... he can't trust me, he thinks I'll always be like this and that the baby isn't his... when I know it's his. 🤦‍♀️ he's one of those people that once it's done, it's done. was I wrong to snap or should I just leave the blame on the hormones because even til now I snap at everything and I'm constantly moody :( :(