miscarriage anxiety

Katlyne • Single Momma of 2💜 Annabella Desire’e Lee 👶🏻👑👸🏻🌈 12.04.17, 8lbs 5.5ozs. Edward Alekzander 👶🏻👑🤴🏻♥️ 02.06.19, 8lbs 12ozs.
My first angels due date is coming up march 13th, and to be honest... my anxiety is driving me insane. Idk who else to tell but I feel like I can't do this... every night I cry, my finger nails and the skin around them are just nubs, I start shaking randomly and I know it's the nerves.  The anxiety is ruining me, and I hate it. I never thought about the due date because I'm always stuck on the day he left me... now I'm supposed to get through his birthday without him. I feel like everything around me is literally crashing down and all I'm doing is staring up waiting for something to hit me... 💔😭👼🏻