sad and conflicted

Femme
So my wife and I have been trying to get pregnant for two years with three IUIS. My family has known of our struggles and have not been too supportive, my mother has though. So, it came yesterday that my sister (10years younger) called and told me she was pregnant. 😒😞😔. I'm the oldest and wanted to have the first grandchild. But my sister stated she wanted to get pregnant 🤰🏽 as well so we could raise our children together. I'm so conflicted because I'm so happy for her, but it's been so hard for us. My sister and I both just lost our jobs by the way. I'm so stressed, I just want to be pregnant 🤰🏽 thinking about starting a family, but I'm dealing with my insurance, my fertility doctor who wants to do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> because I don't have sex with men, but he's needs the okay from my hematologist because I used to have blood clots. But I don't anymore. So I don't know what to do now. I really need either a hug, a new fertility doctor who will do the <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, in Dallas, Tx. Or something because I'm about to loose my mind.