Horrible self image

I cannot believe that 5 years ago I use to enjoy clothes shopping. It was my favorite pass time. But then again I was 125lbs back then. Now that I am 160lbs I cannot stand shopping. I am trying so hard not to cry while trying on clothes. We just spent 2 hours in a store and I can't find a single pair of pants that fit well. I recently tore my work pants (because I am bigger now) and it's killing me to find pants large enough for me. I look awful in everything. I can't believe that I am struggling so much when this use to be my favorite thing to do 😞