It doesn't get eaiser you learn to live on .

I became a single mom at 18 years old.. I was given the promise of a new family , was given broken promises but was also given a beautiful son . At 7 months pregnant he walked out and left all together when I found out he cheated on me , I told him to leave so I could have a breather and he never returned . I spent most of my nights blaming myself and trying to find a root of the problem of it all . I was so shocked because he made everything so believable he made everything feel so real and in all honesty i believed it all and I kept asking myself how could I be so dumb , how could I put myself in the same situation my sister nagged me not to do . But we are human , most of us on these sites and forums , us woman.. Just want a sense of love , a sense of hope and a FAMILY and you or me and all of you reading this You are not to blame you're beautiful and human. You're loveable and just because these boys these men these whatever they want to call themselves want to walk away from our beautiful children find a way to love yourself , you are not to blame . You can't change it you can't fix people you can't make someone love you or your child and even though it may not make sense love yourself and your child enough to let go and remind yourself, it's his loss . Don't wonder how they sleep at night they're sleeping fine while you are up with a crying baby but in the end your beautifully made little people are gonna appreciate you so much for standing so strong for them . At 19 years old with a 8 month old I still have no idea what I'm doing I have no clue sometimes but I get through each day and it's because I know there is strong young and older mothers who struggles in the same way I do and they make it , their kids grow up to be amazing young men and women and we can say we did this without a man and love ourselves and our children even more because it . You are special you have purpose and I just hope someone is reading this finding fulfilment because I am so tired of worrying and letting him have so much control over my happiness when I have a healthy son and you should too.

He doesn't deserve you or your child. You're loveable his mistakes are not yours or your child's.. make your kids proud and when you get to where you need to be be strong and show him that you didn't need him.. that you guys made it just fine . We are only human.. who want love want children and sometimes we get into the wrong situations with the wrong people but stop blaming yourself. You are gonna make it and that little baby that's sleeping or being crazy wide awake or crying right now in some odd years they will be walking human beings grown into amazing master pieces and you can say to yourself I did that cause I'm a strong woman . I love you god loves you and so does your child . You don't need him.... I so promise ...

Goodnight .