I've been thinking about it a lot lately and crying at night.. I can't talk to anyone.. I would talk to my boyfriend but he's sick and I don't want it to be all about me.. but I'm so sad... I can't stop grieving over someone I lost a while ago.. it's been so long.. it wasn't even a person, and I still cry so often... im also having a lot of trouble with my family.. they don't like me very much.. but I try to get through it the best I can.. im sorry about this.. thanks if you read all of this- I won't ask anything of you but..- im sorry..