Ttc vent

Why is TTC so f@#$ing hard?! It's supposed to be fun. I'm so sick of people asking when we are having kids without knowing how hard we've trying for so long. I'm suck of those who know we are trying asking about how things are going and if we are doing okay. I'm so tired of hiding my tears and jealousy when I hear family and friends announce their surprise pregnancies. I'm so sick of hearing just stop trying... "You are just stressing too much." We've tried not trying... it doesn't work. I'm sick of hearing voodoo suggestions to try ... "Well I heard if you eat pineapple upside down facing north you will get pregnant." I'm so sick of wasting money month after month on ovulation kits and doctor's visits. I'm sick of people saying they got pregnant yet first month using preseed... News flash: its not magic. I'm sick of planning each month how I'm going to announce to family that is finally our turn for our sweet angel only to have to throw it away once again. My husband and I are married and have good jobs and a house and financially stable and all that is missing is our little bunny. I feel worthless and incomplete. I'm​ tired of the tears and heartache each month. Praying that one day we will be blessed enough to see those two pink lines.