I'm scared to tell anyone

I'm pretty sure I have PPD, and a lot of anxiety along with it. I moved country to be worth my husband so I have no friends or family around. I've tried to talk to my husband about it but he doesn't understand. I tell him that sometimes I don't want to hold my baby because I'm scared and overwhelmed. I tell him that I miss my old life so much and knowing that it'll never be the same makes me despair. But he gets offended, angry and yells at me that I'm an awful person. I tell him I think I have depression and he thinks I'm making excuses.