So about 8 years ago when I was 14 me and my best friend at the time (7th grade) we were at her house and the neighbor boy messaged us saying him and a couple of his buddies were having a bonfire and to come over.. they were in 9th grade... being the stupid little girls that we were we snuck out of her house and went over to the boys house up the road, we had stolen some of her parents alcohol from the cabinet prior to arriving. So we get there and my friend begins to drink the alcohol .. almost all of it I had a few sips, and I told the boys , there was 3 of them that I had a head ache so I wasn't going to drink, one of the boys offered me a pill he said it makes your head ache go away, Idk why I was stupid enough to take two but the next thing I remember was being in there trailer with one of the guys in the bed and him trying to have sex with me but it wouldn't go in.. I hadn't even started my period yet I was so young. Then I remember telling him I wanted to go outside and he kept saying not yet and was making me suck his dick, not like forcing me but I think I was scared because I remember I kept asking to go outside and he kept saying no not yet. I couldn't have got up and ran away either I was high on these pills that they gave me.. sad thing is I can remember clearly , we lived in a very small town so word got out quick and I was called a whore and all sorts of names. Haunts me to this day, I think somehow it formed who I was as a person, I slept with a lot of guys through out high school and I think that was because I actually believed I was a whore. Would you consider this being raped? This is the first time I'm telling the story 100% as it happened and it's really haunting me today..