i messed up...

Tonight we went to a wedding where more of his family was. He introduced me to all of them. We're hispanics, very traditional. Fast forward to the heart of the party, everybody's dancing the night away. My boyfriend went to get water, another guy comes up to me & asks if I could dance with him. I immediately look for my boyfriend & he's nowhere near me so I said yes. I thought one song wasn't gonna kill anybody.. fast forward, i come back to the table. My boyfriend's mad at me & I begin to apologize and try to talk to him. Next thing, his mother's upset at me. The whole table she was sitting at starts looking at me, talking about it & just giving me bad looks & bad vibes. I now feel like shit & don't know what to do. The rest of the party was shit, and after we left, i tried talking to him. 

Here's the thing though. I was raised in church. I have NEVER danced with a guy until tonight (with my boyfriend). I knew the wedding would involve a lot of dancing & I was open minded. I was ready to step out of my bubble. And so I did. Simply because I like him so much so, that I would do that for him. Just to experience new things with him. He doesn't understand that I'm inexperienced, don't know what I'm doing. To him it was common sense to just say no but my brain thought differently. Anywho, this story has been long enough. 

I talked with my boyfriend. Apologized. I just have to let him process it. I'm guessing I'll have to just be straight up with his mom too & apologize to her as well. It wasn't my intention to disrespect her son infront of all his family. I'm not too sure what I'm doing at parites. I don't know the do's & don'ts. I'm just throwing myself out there for this guy I met online... who i am falling harder & harder for. Thanks for reading 💕