I have wanted a baby for so long, and I have taken so many tests that were negative. Now I keep putting off taking a test because I'm scared. I can't bear another disappointment. But I'm also wondering if I'm more scared of it being negative, or scared of it being positive. I know I can do this on my own, and I want to do this on my own. I know it won't be easy but I know I can do it. So I don't know why I'd be scared of it being positive…