Hi all,

Marking my 6th week, my emotions are all over the place.

Don't take me wrong I am happy about my rainbow baby.

I have had a miscarriage in December, I was about 3 months pregnant.

I was not expecting to be pregnant again soo soon. It wasn't planned.

I just started a second job and I work 12 hrs a day starting at 4:30.am. The plan was to move in with my actual partner and save for a mortgage.

When the accident happened I took the emergency pill in less than 24 hrs but within 1 week I felt all those strange symptoms. I went to see my doctor and she excluded that I would be pregnant.

My breast continued to grow, my head was hurting daily and I started to feel extremely nauseous.

Took a pregnancy test 10 days before my period was due and there was a very faint line there.

I was suggested by the pharmacist to go to the hospital and get blood work done. Well within 48. Hrs my hcg levels more than doubled.

At 5.weeks got my first scan done and we saw the little sac.

Due to have my second at 7 weeks to see my little baby rainbow. Can't wait!

However as I have said my feelings r all over. I have put major weight on I feel ugly and I have been constantly accusing my partner that he will no longer find me attractive. But on all honesty he is not doing anything whatsoever to make me feel that way!!!

I feel now stuck in this place where I live, a place where I can't wait to go away from as in this place I lived a very violent previous relationship. I hate it!.

I want to have my partner with me through my pregnancy, even though is not my first (I already have 2 children) to me it does feel like it.

Is a baby arrived out of love, from a man who lay hand on me to cuddle me and for affection. A man that adores me and I could not see my self living without.

Sorry about the long post, I just needed to take it all out.

😘😘