guess I'm a monster

But I'm 35 weeks and so far my pregnancy journey has been the most hell I've ever gone through in my life not because of health reasons more so because of life issues well baby daddy issues and a lot of unexpected changes and because of everything that has happened I can't even be happy it has caused me to not be really excited about havin a baby and sometimes I wish I can go back in time and change it smh I feel bad for feeling this way and just wanna know if any moms ever felt like this ?