Life vent

I have to say, my husband and I still have not figured out our life with the little one yet. Yesterday we got home after work (granted we're all a little sick but still this is nothing out of ordinary) and didn't eat dinner. I had a slice of toast. So we didn't put baby in high chair and feed him, which I feel guilty about, plus he gave us a look as we snacked in the living room like, shouldn't I be eating too? I have zero energy after work to play with him or even change his diaper (it gets done). I spend most of my night wishing he'd just go to sleep already. I'm also dealing with BAD postpartum anxiety and my husband had finger surgery recently so there's not much he can do. We spend most of our time chasing the baby around the house. We have no good baby proofed spot. We have empty boxes and old furniture scattered around the house. Life's a complete mess right now and I don't know how anyone does it.