how can I deal with all of this

I'm 14 and pregnant and it's terrifying. Yes I know this is all my fault. I was looking for love because I didn't have at home. So I went out and had sex with 2 boys (16&16). Not at the same time or anything but within the same week. I know it was wrong at the time I didn't think so. They both are supportive and wanna be with me and have a "family" if she's theirs. My family isn't so happy but they support my decision to keep my daughter. I love with my grandma and she helps me with everything. She's making me finish school and go to college(I'm so greatful for her) the only thing is the bullying I get for it. I know I made a mistake I know this. I love Layla more than anything in this world and I'm gonna give her the life I didn't have. I just dont know how to cope with my depression and anxiety the doctors wanna put me on meds while pregnant I'm worried about the concerns and risks. One of them is breast feeding I wanted too so bad. My biggest is losing her.... I'm not sure what to do