I don't know how to make this work.

We were stable, we had an apartment, two steady jobs, and an amazing relationship, so we tried for a baby and got three. I wasn't ready for three. I lost my job cause I was too sick, but he has his and it pays decently enough for the two of us and just one baby, but a family of five? Plus his daughter who visits every week. We just had to trade in his car for a minivan, and now he's paying over a hundred more per month for the van. We had to leave the apartment and move in with my godparents because I got really sick, and then put on bed rest. They want us out by fall, and we're supposed to be saving up for a place, but he hasn't been putting away ANY money, and if I mention it to him he gets really defensive. I can't get a job now cause I'm stuck sitting in bed, and after the babies are born the cost of childcare will be way too much for me to go back to work. How can I make ends meet? I want my babies to have everything, and I feel like a mooch for just sitting around. I feel like the only thing that hasn't changed is our love and companionship with each other.

Don't get me wrong, I love all three of the beautiful baby girls growing in my belly, and now that I have them I wouldn't give them up for the world. I'm just so scared. The future seems so uncertain.