Aaaarrrrr
I'm so nervous to have any kind of "party" for baby. I am so scared that no one will show. You see my husband and myself don't have many friends. A majority of those friends that we do have now live far away or are so busy. I don't have much family due to my dad being and only child and my mothers siblings living else where. My in laws lets just say put us on the farthest back burn there is. When we had our engagement party no one we invited showed up but one friend I've know since kindergarten. It was devastating. At our wedding a large majority of people there were my mothers friends and family. I'm so scared that no one will care enough about us to show up to anything for baby. I mean my pregnancy is already being over looked and played down by certain people. I cried all last night because my baby isn't here yet and is already being neglected by those who are supposed to be family. I was at an event and was trying to talk to my MIL (mother in law) about baby. Well MIL could only have short responses and then continued gabbing on about my BIL and SIL who are due soon. They don't even care that this is a miracle child or that my husband and I had to fight for this baby. It breaks my heart. I grew up with a grandparent who always glorified everyone around and treated you like a burden. I didn't want that for my baby but it looks like that's how it's going to be. They also refuse to acknowledge the baby I lost back in 2015 as the first grandchild!!! I also hate my FIL because he doesn't even acknowledge this baby as his first grandchild. My husband has a brother my age but he is not my FIL kid. He is the child of my MIL and her cute husband. Yet my FIL won't go see a movie with my husband but will fly across the country for a kid that's not his. The brother my age is expecting with his wife. They had no trouble getting pregnant. Meanwhile my husband and I struggled for almost four years. Lost our first baby. Found out I had PCOS and fought against infertility. Had to take fertility medicine just to have this baby. Does our struggle matter to his family NO. I am so hurt. I hate them all so much. Also I will find out th sex of baby in June and had mentioned doing a gender reveal party. DH nana and aunt both said I shouldn't and wait till two months before baby is supposed to be here. All because the brother my age is due in June. WTF he doesn't live in this state, and his kid is due at the beginning of the month. Why can't I have my party at the end of June or begging of July. They basically told me I can't do anything because I would be stealing thunder from my BIL and the husband's cousin (due in July) !!! The biggest reason I want a gender reveal in the summer is because my husband works for the schools. He has more time off during the summer. I wanted a time where if anyone who gave a damn could show up. The beginning of the school year is usually hectic. Want to talking about stealing thunder how about me and hubby being engaged three years deciding to get married in may then that same brother sniping our big day from us by eloping in April. What about the fact that oh his older brother too decided to steal our anniversary month from us by getting married a year later in may at an earlier date. My hubby and I are eclipsed my thunder stealers. They didn't even really care when my dad died from cancer. I am so fed up. I want to kick them out of lives. If we say anything to them they will pretend like it was all an innocent mistake. I hate it.
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