just gave my best friend a handjob and blowjob

So I was staying at my best guy friend house, I have since the beginning of the school year and we're just best friends but allot of people think we're dating. Anyway it was like around 12 am when one of his moms friends were over and teasing us about how we should be doing 14 year old stuff like hand,blowjob, or sex and we we're in his room listening on what his mom and his friend was talking about us. Then my guy friend started texting me about what would happened if we ever did one of those three things, I told him I don't know then after texting back and forth about what might happened to us if we did do that he asks me if I wanted to touch him there with his pants on. So I think that's when my mind told me red flag and I started shaking really badly and I thought he was just messing around like we usually do sometimes but he told me to close the door and lay next to him. So I closed the door and layed next to him where we just texted back and forth for like 10 minutes then finally decided to actually do it. So it went to just rubbing him with pants on then just with underwear then to nothing, I hesitated for a long time before I started rubbing him again then he guided me the way he wanted so I did that for a while. After 30 minutes he told me to stop and to look at my phone where he asked me if I've ever done a blowjob before and I texted no then he asked if i wanted to do that and I texted back I don't know even tho I really didn't want to but at the same time I wanted to see how it would feel or see what happenes. So he texted please and after five minutes I was giving him a blow job with his hand on my head guiding me, then I went back with my hands since I was uncomfortable so I gave hand for about another 30 minutes then finally he told me if he could finish it so I let him and watched my best friend jerk himself off until he came, and I now just learned that he does jerk himself off since he told me that he uses two hands then after that we just went back to bed as usual. But after that I literally felt like I was gonna throw up, like I was twitching and almost gaged since this was the first time I've actually done an sexual activity. About two hours later he spoons me and starts humping me which is nothing new since he usually does that when he's asleep so I know he doesn't mean it but this time it was just too sexual between us. Then he rolled on his back and started jerking off when he let go of me, so his pants were still off while he was spooning me which just made my body shaking again. When he was done jerking off he got up and went to the bathroom and came back and slept on the floor instead of the bed, he texted me that it was getting to weird and that we should never talk about it and I agreed to it but the next morning he wanted to to do it again. Which honestly gave me an anxiety attack but his mom was awake so we went to the hall in his apartments, went to the bathroom and just gave him a hand job even tho he asked for a blow job. So he sat on the toilet set and pulled out his dick and I gave him hand, but this time I made him come way faster then the night before so it knew he already had a hard boner then when he asked me if he could finish it I stood up and took a step back and literally watched him jerking off then a minute or two of hearing him jerk off I hear sloshing which meant he had literally came hard which for some reason my body felt really weird and excited and we went back to his apartment like nothing had happened between us. Later on we agreed to never do that again and we just went back to being our usual best friend stuff. So now I just can't stop thinking about what happened or if we would ever do that again. I just feel so weird now. Idk why but half of me wants to do it again and the other don't, probably cause I'm only 14 and I have no idea what I had just done. I'm afraid that we won't be the same as usual or if he just want to use me for whenever he has a boner. So what do you guys think the both of us should do, be fwb or just friends