However my concerns come with the value of the device it self it's still expensive to get one and i wanted to use the money in something we would both enjoy and for the baby things i could get for her and for the house... as commented before... we don't really have much or earn much for certain luxuries.. i feel guilty some times to get my self spoiled. But i just want to have things ready for her and that my partner doesn't need to sweat either :( so although i love my new device i don't feel i'm enjoying it fully out of guilt. 

is this ridiculous of me?