I lost my baby

My day started off like every other. Nausea and saltine crackers. We were taking my 3 year old step son to a birthday party and I started to cramp. I didn't pay it much mind but in the span of about an hour they became unbearable. Shortly after I began to bled. I prayed all the way to the hospital. I cried and begged God to let me keep my baby. There on a hospital bed I passed my innocent little answered prayer and my heart broke into a thousand pieces. I was almost 9 weeks. My fiancé and I just cried and held each other. They told me it wasn't my fault but I just wish I could of saved my baby. I've never felt so helpless. This morning I didn't feel nauseated and got upset all over again. I didn't know I could love something so much that I'd never met. 😔