me and you baby💗

Oh my sweet pea, I feel you growing inside; the sickness you put me through, the emotions and the pain, even if you've decided that I need to have hyperemesis gravidarum. If that helps you grow than throw the sickness at me. Your daddy was here last week; he was rubbing my back and getting my hair out of my face. However I haven't heard from him in 24 hours, and I no longer know if I will hear from him again. My lovely I love you with my heart, I've got you and you've got me💗💙 He's told me he just needs space to think, your nanny and uncle told him he's choses them or us. So far he's chosen them baby, he's picked them over us; id never make you daddy lose his family for us. But baby I'm struggling, I'm sorry I haven't eaten much in the last day, I'm sorry for how many times I've screamed and cried in heartbreak. I'm sorry I'm not drinking enough water for you, I'm sorry I'm not taking care of you like I should be, I'm not helping you grow right now. I'm just trying to be okay with the fact I'm losing your daddy, my sweet pea I don't have the world to give you I wish I did. I'm 19 and your daddy's 21, but I've got a whole house full of love for you, I've got food to give you and clothes to dress you. My heart is beating to keep you strong baby. I'm staying strong for you. Because one day when your old enough you'll ask me where your daddy is and I'll tell you that he wasn't prepared to love you like I do, that he couldn't give up the world for you. My sweet sweet baby, we may be starting of the hard way already, and the roads may be rough; but my darling I won't give you up, I won't turn my back, I won't just walk away from you. I've got you baby and as a single mummy I promise you that no one will ever be as Important to me as you are. No one will ever compare. I promise you we've got this. Me and you have got this baby💙💗