My small hometown has been known for teenage pregnancies, which is why i put my ex boyfriend through "hell" by being celibate for years. That relationship didnt last. I assume all the aggression he had towards me was from the sexual frustration, no way to let it out with me. So thats that. Now, my current bf, he is a bit more understanding but I am so in love with him that being celibate is hard in itself. I got and IUD, out of fear of
pregnancy because of my parents. They have always told me that I need a degree before starting a life with someone, and when baby talk comes up, they often say "you better not, you're not ready" or "what about your degree" or "what kind of example will you be for your siblings". ( i am the oldest of four) so all the things my parents say hold me back, but I'm 24 now going on 25 and I feel mature and old enough to have a child, even without my degree or education. I have a job with a school district and I'm doing okay considering I have a bit of debt in my hands but other than that I feel completely capable. Anyhow, is been having
pregnancy and baby dreams like crazy and my heart yearns for a child. And im at my wits end with all the back and forth, brain says no and heart says yes. I know the opinion of others should never be important, but at this point, I just want a tie breaker. I want to know if what I want is too much to ask for and my parents are right, or if I deserve what I want and I should pursue it. So here is my poll! Please help, I'm sure many of you have faced this type of turmoil before. Its so unnerving and frustrating! I appreciate the time you took to read this. Thank you so much!
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