So I'm 38 weeks pregnant with my first baby but it's been pretty hard to focus on that and be excited. We really have a lot going on, my family is coming to stay with us for a couple of months in our 2 bedroom apartment and we're also taking care of my two young step sons half of the week. On top of everything my husband's close relative just passed away and he's been kind of a mess because of that. In his frustration he broke a lot of stuff, including the TV, punched holes in the walls etc. and has been drinking and sending some mean texts to people, being very nasty to me etc. I keep telling him that I understand he's grieving and that it's ok to be sad, I'm not even upset about the broken stuff but at the same time, he doesn't need to be so nasty to people including me. He's just one of those people that turns sadness into anger I guess. I've been trying to be supportive but at the same time, I worry about my baby and my step sons and that they have to deal with this. Today he came home drunk from a "work lunch" and I just went for almost an 1.5h walk by myself and didn't really talk to him. He said that he was talking about the whole situation to his ex and I said that I don't understand why he feels like he needs to talk about his/our private life to her... He said that I'm selfish and don't understand what he's going through. I don't think that's the case, I have been literally holding his hand the past few days and trying to be as understanding as I can, let him get it out but I can't lie that I'm also pretty overwhelmed by how things are right now. Especially that I'm about to give birth any day now and I can't really rely on my husband for support. I mean, if he's drinking while I'm in labor I might just have to Uber to the hospital or something. I don't know. Do you think I'm being selfish by thinking/feeling this way?