My Crazy Long Story

So I went in to the hospital on April 24th at 9am to get induced. I was 1cm dilated. I had cervidal put in and got sent home. Went back in the next day at 9am they took it out and put another one in. I was still only 1cm. Got sent home again. Went back in at 9am on the 26th to have it taken out again and the nurse came in and we talked about different options we could do since I was not in labour. We took it out and I was still only at 1cm. So we decided that we would do a folly bulb and once it fell out oxytocin. So I had it put in layed in the bed for however long it was and then stood up to go pee and it fell out. Now I'm not going to lie all these induction techniques hurt going in and coming out. So it fell out. I asked the nurse if I could get the oxytocin in the machine where you can walk around and she went looking and found one after an hour. Where she checked me and since the bulb fell out at 3cm I was still sitting at 3cm. Got all hooked up and walked around the hospital with my husband. Had to go back to my induction room every hour for them to turn it up. At around 8pm got sent to the labour and delivery room. At this point my contractions where getting intense and I had a shot of morphine. They checked and I was still only 3cm. They asked if I wanted an epidural I said no. They then gave me the laughing gas and started giving me morphine regularly. Then they switched to giving me fentanyl. At 3am the next day I still hadn't dilated more then 3 cm and the doctor started pushing me towards getting an epidural and informed me if I didn't dilate more soon I would need a c section. I told them I didn't want either and the only way I would consent to a c section is if it was medically necessary. Well they stopped giving me drugs at this point and started saying I need to have an epidural to make my labour speed up and give me a break. I need to mention I felt I was doing okay handling everything. But the doctor started comparing me to other women who got it had babies. Well they checked me again at 4am and I had dilated to 6cm in the stress of it all. I also got bullied into the epidural. At 8am they came back into my room for the first time since giving me the epidural. I told them I still felt everything. Not as intensely but I felt it all. They said that's impossible and checked me to find out I got stuck at 6cm now. The nurse called in the doctor I told them I thought the epidural wasn't working right. Again I was told I was wrong and they topped me off and said they thought I was going to need to have a c section because I again was stuck. They left and the nurse stayed and watched me through a few contractions and saw I was in fact feeling it. So then they added more fentanyl into me. At this point I heard a nurse say I was not dealing with the pain well and that I should be flying high soon with the amount of stuff in me. I was not. Finally at around 8am they believed me that nothing was working and called in the specialist to see what they could do because they thought I was going to need a c section. I demanded to be un hooked up to everything. They kept the oxytocin in obviously and the epidural stayed in my back because apparently they can't remove it until labour is over... sounded like a lie to me.. then the specialist arrived at 1030am and I started to feel the need to push. I was told I was wrong because I wasn't close. But they hadn't checked me in hours at this point.. but I listened and tried to stop pushing. At 1050 I didn't care anymore and started pushing. They checked me at this point and it was go time. So the specialist left and the nurse stayed with me and called the doctor. I pushed for 2 hours sober. Once I got going I didn't need any more interventions from the doctors. I did have a second degree tear as well as I bled to much and passed out after she was out. She had a low heart rate and got checked out by NICU nurses but she was fine and got put on my chest after.

She is now 4 weeks old and has had jaundice and currently has a herniated umbilical cord. Her and I had the worst time bringing her into the world and this month has been super stressful but I am so happy to have her. I also decided with my husband that she is going to be our one and only baby.