This is my 3rd pregnancy and I'm carrying so low that when I squat at all it feels like she is going to pop out of me. I don't even understand how she is physically located so low in my pelvis. My other two labors were only 4 hours long so lord help me this one might just pop right out before I make it to the hospital. I've never been this miserable during pregnancy. Then on top of that I am newly single. He said our 4 year relationship made him loose his sense of self. Gave me his bull crap excuse that I needed to wait for him to regain himself. He needed time for himself and that it wasn't about seeing other women. Smh I'm such a fool.  Saw him today at a festival surrounded by women. Smh. My pregnancy hormones and hurt got the best of me. I walked over and threw a container of fries with cheese mushrooms, ketchup and mustard on his pants. I just want to have my emotions back and my body back. We wanted this child so much and now I just feel like it means nothing now.