Hello everybody, 🤗 as you can see from my latest posts I am pregnant again ( 20weeks &' 6days) God is blessing us with another babygirl 👨‍👩‍👧‍👧. This whole pregnancy started off good but has started declining early in. I've had spotting early on, come to find out I needed to be on these injections called lovenox. I began taking them when I was around 7weeks. I've been going to the hospital for every little thing ( I know they've become accustomed to my face ). Well throughout this pregnancy I've had spotting, full blown blood to fill a pad, fainting spells. I've been on pelvic rest for going on 3.5 months. Almost a month ago I woke up from a nap and I was laying in blood, I rushed to the hospital and they didn't do much ( abdominal ultrasound and heartbeat) and sent me home, I went back in the morning because it became heavier with clots. Then they did a pelvic exam and seen that my cervix was dilated 1cm. They scheduled me for a ultrasound with maternal fetal medicine ( MFM ) the next day. They examined me vaginally and abdominally and came to the conclusion that my cervix is shortening and dilating already. They put me on a progesterone suppository ( which I started that day ) to see if it would stop my cervix from opening. They scheduled me for a ultrasound a week later to see if they were working to stop it. Fast forward to my appointment ( may 26 2017 ); my cervix didn't stop opening and it was currently at 3cm dilated and my cervix length was at 6cm. It went from normal to 13cm to 6cm within a week interval. They told my mother and I that a cerclage isn't inserted until you've had 2 loses ( who the hell wants to experience that before they're able to get help) 😡. I'm not able to get a emergency cerclage become my cervix is too thin/dilated that they're afraid it will just rip andcause internal bleeding😓. So only thing their sticking to is the progesterone suppositories. They took me out of work that day and put me on bedrest. They said I won't make it to my due date, I will go into preterm labor but they cannot say when.Only good from all of this is that she has a healthy heartbeat and she's extremely active ❤️❤️.  All she does is move around😓❤️. Fast forward to yesterday when I woke up and used the bathroom and it was blood and I felt pressure in my lower abdomen.My boyfriend was at work so a ambulance had to come get me. I got there and they performed a pelvic exam and checked her heartbeat . Doctors and nurse came in and said that I'm still currently 3cm dilated they said they're able to see the sac the baby is in , it's not bulging through but it's sitting directly on top of my open cervix 😢. They said the pressure I feel is from me moving/gravity and the sac pressing against my cervix. They said they're is nothing they can do, it's just a waiting game 😓. If I can go to at least ( June 16) without going into labor then they said they'll be able to do things to save her because I'll be 23 weeks, but if I do before I hit 23 weeks my pregnancy will be terminated 💔💔💔💔. Mind you the end of may the 31 to be exact in 2016 is when they couldn't find Simora heartbeat and June 2nd she was delivered sleeping💔 this is all happening around the same time and it's so depressing. I pray so many times a day and night that I can make it to 23 weeks at least . I just feel like if I lose her ( minettá : min-yet-ta ❤️ ) then I'll be broken literally, I will literally go insane. I can't handle this , only thing that makes me smile and be happy is feeling her move and my weekly ultrasounds ❤️