I was dating this guy for several weeks, he broke up with me, and a couple weeks later wanted to hang out. He came over and told me he regretted breaking up with me and started kissing me. I told him to stop and that we needed to talk instead. He didn't stop, and then wanted to go to the bedroom. I told him I didn't want to, but he pulled me by the hand into my room. He was on top of me and continued to kiss me and touch me, I told him to stop, trying to push him off repeatedly. He pulled off his pants and tried taking off mine. I told him again no, I said it again and again but he kept pressuring me until I gave in. When I told him he was hurting me, he just said 'Good.' I felt so ashamed the next day for giving in to him, I didn't want to do any of it.

A few days later he wanted to come over again. This time I told him I had slept with someone else and he was upset. He told me I needed to make it up to him. He took all my clothes off and got himself undressed. I was laying on the bed and he pulled me off onto the floor. He told me to go down on him, he would push my head down and count until I started to gag. He slapped me in the face with it still in my mouth. He then had sex with me. But the worst was when he turned me over and tried to force anal. I begged him to stop or at least use lubricant, he chose lube. 

I really don't know how to define this because I did eventually give in the first time and I feel like I could have done more to stop it. I was scared the second time because he was so angry, but I just think I should have done more.