I'm losing it.

Brittany
I had a miscarriage on mothers day and a few days before my 30th birthday. It was by far the worst few days of my life.
We decided to jump back on the band wagon right away. I lost the baby just before 8 weeks and my blood work a week ago was down to 13.
Now I think I'm due for my period on Tuesday and am getting super faint positives and feel like I might throw up. Super moody and my skin is going nuts. I want this so bad, but I am freaking out that it's just the old pregnancy giving me a positive. Or maybe the faint lines mean it won't stick this time either. I hate waiting and have been crying all morning. 
My husband keeps telling me to stay positive but I have so many doubts.😔😭