I absolutely love my boyfriend I really really do. Everything about him is amazing. We have the best chemistry ever, we have so much in common, when we are together we don't ever fight or argue. Sex is out of this world and very frequent. But, he cheated on me with his ex before Christmas. And got us both pregnant. They have a son, the same age as mine to a previous partner, and our sons attend the same school so I see her everyday, and even tho I do, and I could ask her, or she would tell me. It dosent stop me thinking he could still do it all again. Being with us both. So when we aren't together, I'm constantly riddled with insecurities and paranoia. Which is quite a lot as he is always busy. I only see him 3 days a week. It's just coming in between us more and more everyday. Now this weekend he's caused more issues by having his best friend in my company then accusing me of flirting and being all happy and full of smiles with him. And how paranoid it made him etc. I just feel this all isn't going to last. And I'm going to loose someone I really love. But did he ever love me. 😞😞😞😞