I am scheduled for my surgery next week and i am super scared. Apparently i will be unconscious unlike some stories i have read where they are awake. I do not know what to expect. Is the cramping anything like labour? How is your body afterwards? I have been having really bad dreams about it and keep seeing "my baby" its terrifying. This is not anything i would ever wanted to do. I used to judge people who have done this and now i will be going through with this. Its not anyones decision but mine and ultimately with my current mental health its the best option for myself. I don't know anyone who has done this because i guess everyone keeps it a secret and is ashamed. So i am really wanting to know what to expect! I don't know how i will be emotionally. I cry everytime i have been to my drs appts about this situation. I haven't really been changing my mind about keeping it and really am 90% sure this is what i want and have to do