update

Hello everyone I recently wrote a post about my bf breaking up with me due to the fact that he wanted to be single for college. A lot has happened since then and I wanted to share with you guys to get some advice back. Well two weeks later we were at our friend's graduation party and he was kinda drunk so we were talking and he was crying to me and telling me he missed me and he wanted me back so he asked for a second chance and obviously I said yes because I felt like it was real although I knew he was drunk my heart wanted me to believe that he truly meant it. Well we hung out again and we kissed and even hooked up. I know right, stupid of me to give in so easy! Worst mistake of my life..I felt so worthless like he knew he had me so he didn't have to try anymore to win me back. I had gone out to the movie theaters with him recently and I just asked him if he truly wanted to be with me, he paused And said of course and so I asked again and he said he wasn't 100% sure but he did think he wanted to be with me. At that moment I tried really hard not to break down because I had done so much for him and it truly felt crappy to know that he no longer loved me like I loved him. It's honestly one of the worst feelings but I'm getting better and better by the day. I'm learning to love myself before I let anyone else in my life and that won't be for a good while. Deep down I wanted us to workout but I cannot force someone to love me and be with me the way I love them. It hurts. Our first year anniversary is coming up and I'm reckless. I don't wish this feeling to anyone