I'm having a really hard time dealing with and moving on after my miscarriage last month. My cousin and I got pregnant within 5 days of eachother and I was so excited that we were both expecting, then we lost our baby at 8 1/2 weeks and I was devastated. I'm so angry and it is so unfair, I'm sad and feel like I'll never have a baby, even though I did everything right and planned and waited to have a baby until we could provide a good life for our baby and were ready financially, emotionally and physically.  It's been a month since we lost our baby and I thought that I would be feeling better but I'm not. Trying again feels like such a trying burden. I don't want to go back to tracking my cycle and the two week wait, it feels like torture. I'm just so angry and sad and I don't know what to do and it makes it so much worse seeing my cousin continue in her pregnancy when I should have been going through all that too. It's a constant reminder of where I would have been. This just hurts so much.