There is nothing more heartbreaking than losing a child and feeling so empty! In Nov 2016 my husband and I found out we would be adding to our family! We were beyond excited! Then in Dec of 2016 at my 12wk ultrasound found out we were expecting IDENTICAL TWINS! So shocked and just over joyed we were so so happy! Then Jan 2017 found out we were expecting boys! Ezekiel & Xavier❤️ then after many many trips to the ER and losing fluid and then experiencing a lot of blood we found out on Feb 2017 that we lost them both! I was 18wks 6 days and they were born at 19wks on valentines Day!  I think about them every single day what they would've looked like now because I was going to deliver this week but I do that no matter what they are with me every single day! My husband and I also have an 8 yr old and 6 yr old and they also took it hard! But we know that we did everything we could've done! As days pass and I know we will be blessed again but that will never replace our boys! We try to talk about them as often as possible and make sure we remember how happy they have made our family by being apart of it! Even though what we have gone through was so heartbreaking I am so grateful I got the opportunity to have two beautiful boys! I am grateful I am still able to have children and I know they wouldn't want me to be sad! We have our good days and not so good days but my husband and I cry when we need and pick ourselves back up and try to be strong! Like I said some days aren't easy but I do my best and I always tell our kids "it's ok to be down but it's not ok to stay down" and I have to lead by example. So to anyone who has suffered a loss stay strong hold on to hope and faith that everything will work out! My heart is with you as I know first hand how it feels to suffer a loss! Sending you big hugs and remember to hold on to hope!❤️❤️❤️ I share my story in hopes of giving someone the courage to share theirs and to know that you are not alone!