First time I ever got pregnant, it was an accident... I didn't even know I was pregnant yet and I miscarried... boyfriend at the time was super relieved.. when I asked why .. he told me "because you were just gonna kill it anyway, right?"  Second time, he pretty much forced me to get an abortion... it's so frustrating that now I'm with someone who loves me and cares for me and we've been TTC for 6 months & it's like we're getting nowhere🤦🏽‍♀️ then all my friends are popping up pregnant or having babies.. I just feel so overwhelmed .. because for some reason, I feel like it's my fault we can't conceive.