thoughts?

Lately I've been super depressed.. I've been going through a lot for the last couple of years.. but I noticed everytime I was with my nephews and nieces I felt really good.. 
I feel like I want a kid. I am 20 years old, working and have my own place with my boyfriend.. he doesn't want a kid because he's not sure if he is ready.. I'm not sure I'm ready either but I really want this.. idk what to do.. anyone have any suggestions