We were fuck buddies. We said "I love you" but he always wanted me to look at other guys and have sex with them and never wanted to take me out, anywhere, never even let me come over, said he didn't want us to get "too attached", but when I had sex with another guy, and never told him till way later, he always broke things off with me, because I should've known better. He considers I cheated, but then said it turned him on. We were, and are not dating, he won't, just refuses. We have been "together" for 4 months, and even though he's trying, idk how much longer I can do this, I have no clue what I am, what I mean to him. What's worse is we are into DDLG, and he's my daddy... but he hardly ever acts like it. I never feel loved with him, and I'm scared to talk because I love him so much and I don't wanna hurt him. He's not a caring person at all, and him doing the smallest thing, like saying "fine" "sorry" will make me think I did something wrong... he even admitted to me he hurt me our first two months together because he wanted me to move on from him...