Endo defeated 😞

I had a lap back in February confirming the suspected diagnosis of endo. It was a hard recovery for me. I believe I was stage 3 and my bowels had adhered to my pelvic wall. It took me the full 5-6 weeks to start feeling better. I felt AMAZING after that though! Then two months (literally to the day) after the surgery I started cramping and found out I had two new cysts. I had them pull my IUD and switch my BC pills. The simple cysts have dissolved since the removal of the IUD, but I have a new endometrioma already. 🙄 Since then it's been a never ending cycle of trial and error to find a BC that doesn't make me crazy AND controls my endo symptoms. I'm starting my third new pill (lo-loestrin) and have been spotting and cramping since starting it (for over a week now). I'm so worn out. I'm so tired of all the failures. I've always been super sensitive to BCP side effects and compounding that with my endo side effects it's so much worse. I genuinely feel like giving up most days. How do you guys keep pressing forward? I don't understand all these women who are "endo strong" when all I feel is endo defeated. 😞