SO isn't ready for kids 💔

KacieLayne
I feel terrible. I feel selfish, but I also feel just so so sad. 
All my life, all I have wanted are kids. 
We've been together for 3 years and I've spoken to him before about wanting our first baby. 
We can afford it, we're settled, and I just feel like a little baby would complete our family so much more. 
He doesn't want any kids right now. He often says that he doesn't even want to think about kids for another few years. 
What do I do? 
This is all I want and he won't budge. I get that I have to respect how he feels about it but what about what I want? I just want a baby. I feel so awful. I've been crying on and off for weeks. This need/want/yearning to have a baby is so strong. Like no other feeling I've felt before. 
I'm just lost and more depressed than I've ever been. 
Please, guys… just tell me what to do.