Is it still considered a Little if I don't have any interest in doing kids things like toys, binkies, kids cups etc?

Deep down I feel like I relate to being a Little because I feel I NEED a safe and secure authoritive (almost parental like) husband, I like the idea of calling him Daddy and snuggling and cuddling and I'd like strict rules and punishments for my own good and protection and I like to have my hand held when crossing the road and I want him to take care of me and love me (not in a baby way but in a caring loving way). So my Little side is more emotional rather than the act like playing childlike.

I grew up in an abusive unsafe childhood where I was beaten just because they were angry and threatened to throw me out on the street constantly, love was purely conditional on how much I pleased them and now I feel like I need to regress and explore all my Little side to teach myself to feel safe and secure all over again (heal my inner child perhaps). Is that messed up? I am married but he doesnt like the DDLG thing so I feel like I cant really explore my Little side without feeling immature which doesnt help ☹

Is there any other Littles out there who can relate to any of this?