Has anyone ever woke up and hate the fact that their life isn't all they planned it to be? Yea I did that this morning. After going to bed at 5am and waking up at 3pm every day I realized I've really messed up my life. Nothing has gone as I pictured.

I've been asked a lot "what does your life look like in 5 years" and the answer was never this. Problem is I don't even know where to begin to fix everything.

Monday is going to be the start. I want to turn my life around. Have a career, a real home, even energy to cook dinner every night! Return to school!

I've been told I have to lose weight to be able to have a baby. For 7 years I've been told that over and over again. I currently 201lbs. My new goal is 140lbs. Monday starts my new diet and when I start exercising.

I am going to drop this weight and become healthy!