I feel completely lonely as a teen. I am very different from everyone. I am the silent person who has an amazing personality and fun to be around, a nerd and exceptionally talented at everything. People often tell me how pretty I look for a 16 year old (I look like my dp haha) I prefer to be alone most of the time. I cannot stand any sign of flirting, and I feel scared out of my mind when I experience it (which happens a lot to me sadly) Guys are stupid at this age, and dating for the sake of it. My concept of dating would be after I get a job and only with a person potential of marrying. Unlike other teens, I rarely use my phone, I don't save anyone's numbers, I am reserved and always in manners. I don't follow fashion, I am more of a formal person.

Because of the things that happened in my past, I hate people, and use my maths skills of drawing out the probability/ statistics/ graph of every outcome.

I have financial problems in my family, so all I focus on is growing up to be a person everyone would look up to. I just want to get a good job.

I have no intentions of loving someone or getting married. I don't have crushes either. I believe I have potential to be one of the most famous person known in commerce. And being with someone would shut shut all options for me.

I don't use bad words (never in my life)

Ofcourse, I hate parties (I like being around people), I haven't tried alcohol or had crushes. I look upto few of my classmates, it's almost like stalking. it's irrespective of the gender.

I didn't have friends last year, and I didn't speak a single word at school or home (really and literally), My new friends believed I was a lesbian, and they also tried to get me talking to random boys.

I am always competing against everyone to be the best, including my family (that's another huge story)

Despite everything, I don't question myself and I relentlessly strive towards my goals

I don't ask anything from my parents, because I want to be a good kid I recently realised I was hurting myself by sacrificing my birthday celebration, shopping of needful clothes.

I save a lot of money, without getting pocket money.

I know this is long, and I know you thought my life was interesting/useless.