40 week vent

So today is my due date, officially 40 weeks 😭 I was really hoping when my doctor told me at my 30 week ultrasound that my boy was measuring in the 85th percentile that he would be at least a few days early if not a week or two. I'm so incredibly frustrated and stressed since I've been having contractions with really bad back pain on and off since Sunday morning. Sometimes they are really strong to where I can't move at all and sometimes I can barely feel them. Until today, I have only had them when I'm lying down and as soon as I get up they stop and I feel great. Last night I started getting really bad hip and thigh pains that would stop me in my tracks and constant back pain. Today for the last 2 1/2 hours I've been having contractions while up moving around anywhere from 10-20 minutes apart and not super intense to where I can't do anything. I called l&d; and they said to stay home until contractions are 3-4 minutes apart and I can't walk talk or breathe through them or my water breaks, even though this has been going on for 5 days now and I'm in so much pain and discomfort. I'm even more frustrated because I see all these women I know who have already had their babies (early at that) who either aren't married or in a steady relationship or haven't been for very long and who all got pregnant on "accident" or on their first try while I've now been married for 3 years, and it took us a year and fertility meds to get pregnant and now I'm at my due date and have to wait even longer while being in pain. And on top of it all I'm supposed to be starting a new job (one of my dream jobs) the beginning of September and I'm so worried that at this rate I'm not only going to have him super late but that I'm gonna end up needing a c section because things just aren't progressing causing me to have a longer recovery time. I've already been out of work for 4 months now cause the place I was at screwed me over. Maybe this all sounds selfish but I'm just so incredibly frustrated! I just needed to vent especially with all of our family not wanting to respect our privacy and the fact that I've asked everyone to wait to visit until I've been able rest and clean up and eat rather than coming in when he's two or three hours old and I'm exhausted and with them constantly calling and texting to see what's going on as if we won't let them know when he's born.