I've decided to date one of my longest friends due to an understood attraction for one another for 7 years.

He intentionally shot himself about 5-6 years ago and is now dealing with the aftermath of a "closed head injury" so the doctors have prescribed him with pretty much everything bipolar, depression, schizo, etc.

he doesn't like taking the medicine because he has no emotion whatsoever (he does with me for some reason) and he knows the meds are wearing on his kidneys.

When we have a disagreement (which isn't often), his outbursts are explosive to where you really have to steer clear from the anger, and because of that, my family doesn't accept him due to the things he has done to me from anger. I've forgiven him because he still shows me who he was when I first met him. And he makes me happy. But I want him to overcome everything.

That may be asking for a lot, but I have ppl apart of my family who has dealt with and overcame or maintained their schizophrenia, depression and suicidal thoughts so I feel like it's possible with good faith and control.

Honestly i don't know what I'm asking for. I think I just came here to vent because We finally have my opportunity to make each other happy and be in love.

He's told me he's never been in love before, and I honestly feel like I believe him because I've been there for his past relationships and their interaction with each other. I just want him to not expect to die, to not feel alone and to be truly happy. How can I continue to do that?