So late last month I had some really bad news about my little peanut her heart is in a very bad way and they don't know whether she will make it once I've had her I've got a appointment on the 25th this month to finalise a induction date.. all I really know is that it's very serious and not repairable.. 🙁🙁🙁

And quite obviously I'm very sad and down right now I don't want to shower I don't want to do any house work all I want to do is lay in bed.. ( probably feeling a bit depressed) but obviously that's what is expected I just have no faith or hope at all and I'm not excited about having her at all in fact I'm really pooping myself!! This is my first child and I just don't feel like it's getting any better in fact I seem to be worse every day!! Has anyone got any advice or stories that you have had really bad news about your bubba and the hospital have got it wrong or am I just hoping..

Don't really know what anyone can say to this.. because I don't know what to say to myself just felt like I needed to write something down! 🙁🙁🙁🙁

Sorry for the rant ladies just felt like I needed to get out and every time I talk to my OH he just says I'm being negative and isn't very helpful which I understand he's hurting too...